we still hang out everyday. having our usual adventures. spending the same amount of time together. I LOVE IT! yah know why? cuz everyone doubted that this would work.

one week after school started and everything is just fine and dandy. hooray! we've still managed to spend every moment together. except ofcourse... work and school. im lovin every minute of it.

the more time we spend together, the closer we get. the more i want to spend even more time with him. i should be SICK of him by now. but im not. each moment leaves me craving more.

last night i was incredibly close to uttering those three little words. but i didnt. i held back. because what i felt could just be fleeting. but its been 6 months since we first began talking. 6 months of bliss. the honeymoon only lasts 3 months. and yet....

full speed ahead. no stops. no bumps. no delays.

we're at separate campuses. the summer is over. he said we'll work it out. i know we can make it work. cuz we always find ways to. its just gonna be a little bit more difficult trying to make our schedules work. but we'll get through it. we always do.

AH! i dont want to be in school yet! look at me. im supposed to be in class and im in the COMPUTER LAB. man. i just scream high school with my attitude. BLEH. whatever.

I MISS ADAM!!!! yikes. we scare me.

which makes 4 for me. 5 for him.

i spent the night again. nothing beats sleeping in his arms and waking up in the same position.

i love that when we're together, nothing else matters. i love that feeling of having no worries. and i love how he makes me feel. and do i love him???

.... getting there... but not quite.

LAST NIGHT WAS WONDERFUL!!!

i slept over at his house last night. it was his birthday today. he decided that he wanted to spend the first few hours with me instead of friends. we didnt do anything. we HAVENT done anything. im getting a little frustrated, but... its a good thing. good things come to those who wait. and he's been worth the wait so far.

but it was nice. falling asleep in his arms. waking up in his arms. and just using his body against mine for warmth. i wish i was in PJs. but was in the usual jeans and a tshirt. he got into his PJs. hell yeah i was jealous. but it was comfortable. it was nice. as a matter of fact... it was perfect.

so im home right now. waiting for his call. he's going out with his friends tonight and they're getting him drunk. its a good thing... as bad as it sounds. i wanna take care of him tonight like he took care of me that one night.

AH! im falling.... f a l l i n g ! ! ! ! ! this is such a WONDERFUL feeling.

i cant believe im this happy. it's surreal. i never imagined myself in this situation. finding someone that im so compatible with. we're so alike in so many ways. but he has his own personality. we need each other. and it just feels so right when we're together. he knows what to do and what to say to make me happy. without even thinking about it.

this is such a wonderful feeling. i never want it to end.

best summer of my life. I LOVE IT!

lately, everytime our song plays.... on the part where kelly is all i love you, and i need you, he points at me. i dont know if that's supposed to mean he's trying to say he loves me but doesnt know how to say it, or ... i dont know. it's confusing. and lately, he keeps making it a point to make cheesy jokes about how he's "falling." whether he's fallen or not is yet to be determined.

see, cuz he's different. he's only said "i love you" once to a girl. and that was only because she wouldnt get off the phone with him until he said it. it was her first time saying to him, and she wanted to hear it in return. so basically, he's never said it and meant it before. but then again, he's only dated super-short filipino breezies. never had a girl like me.

he likes to remind me of how different i am from other girls. he's lived a pretty sheltered relationship life. hung around the typical crowd. so what he's seen in me is something completely different from what he's used to. but its GREAT! because i've never had anyone like him either.

he's the type of guy that wont hide anything from me. he's completely open about everything. regardless of what it is. past. present. future. and that's what i need. someone who isnt all hung up on images. a guy who understands me well and who will willingly adjust. a guy who would do as much for me as i would for him. and im willing to do pretty much anything and everything for my guy....

but he's not my guy just yet.