adam is out with another girl right now. i suppose i have nothing to be jealous about. im generally not the jealous type. he did invite me, after all. and he has been constant with his calls and text messages. he sounds like he could be having a much better time if i was there with him right now.

but. asian girl. traditional parents. you figure it out.

i do miss him. im tempted to hop out of my window and meet up with them.

oh yeah. the other girl is his co-worker. she's lonely. he felt the need to get her out of her house. cuz he's cool like that. he always tries to make the best out of every situation. i admire his optimism. i admire that he goes out of his way in order to make someone else more comfortable. he may whine about it to me, but its great that he puts forth the effort to do so.

i might not be making sense right now. im just pre-occupied by the fact that he's having fun and im sitting at home like a pathetic loser.

ive been sick for the past couple of days. had to stay at the hospital overnight last night. now im back home.

adam stayed with me from the time i checked in, til i got home safely. last night we listened to old music all night long until we both fell asleep.

i can spend forever talking to him. and lately.. i have been.

last night before i signed off, adam called me. WHOA! speak of the devil... he just called.... PLAYING OUR SONG!!!!

his best friend had his CD, so we've been depending on the radio to hear our song. after spending a little time with her (an hour, time in which he was constantly texting me), he gave me a ringy ding ding with the opening - "hey! guess what i got back..." ..short pause... and he BLASTED our song. needless to say, the huge grin on my face turned into a humongous smile. he always seems to catch me off guard with his sweet little surprises. this guy is so thoughtful.... any girl should jump at the chance to be with him.

[new story] the other night while we were chatting as usual, we were talking about who he should bring to watch a movie. halfway through the conversation, he said "oh hey. lemme call you back." he said it in a hurry, so i assumed someone was calling on the other line. so i replied "okay, bye" with the quickness, and hung up. a SECOND later, my phone rings with his ringtone. i pick up. "whoa that was quick." and he goes... "oh. haha. so hey, i was just wondering if you wanted to watch a movie with me later on tonight." ***LOUD GIRLY SCREAM***

i'm a sucker for cheesy guys. call me blow pop.

adam and i were on the phone for 11 hours straight today. from the time he woke up until 11 hours later. our only break from the phone was 20 minutes for his shower and 20 minutes for mine. we met up at starbucks and talked for a couple of hours. i dont think i can ever get sick of hearing his voice. he is so caring. he is so understanding. and he knows me so incredibly well. my best friend, whom i've known for quite a few years now, is the only other person in the world that knows me as well as he does.

our connection is uncanny. it's like im in his head, and he is in mine. we dont need words to communicate... yet we never have any awkward silences. never have any silent moments, for that matter.

today we counted the times we heard our song on the radio. monitored 4 radio stations. ended up with a total of 9 times for the longevity of our conversation. its only been an hour since we got off the phone, and i miss him already. ... even if he has been texting me constantly. WHOA! speak of the devil... he just called.... PLAYING OUR SONG!!!!

*SIGH* what is a girl to do?

how hard is it to admit that someone else is better? its just like admitting that someone else is right and you are wrong. for some people, its not so hard. but for people like me, it's difficult. my pride gets in the way. for the most part, i know it's a bad thing. but.... i dont know.

my friend jen tells me that adam and i are cute together. and i know we are. we click so well and we have yet to get sick of talking to each other. awkward silences are nonexistent. except for that one morning when we were talking til 530am, he called at 6am, and we had a sleep blip for like 5 minutes. that was a trip. cracked me up. so it wasnt really an awkward silence... more of a "we're both tired, so lets take a mutual quickie nap." when it was over, we both agreed that we needed some rest. and he'd call me at 8.