maybe i just like to date. the excitement of getting to know somebody new. i love the butterflies in my stomach when he does something sweet. i love the surprises. i love trying to figure out who this guy is. Libras love falling in love. so i guess that explains it.

i have a checklist of things that my ideal guy would have. certain traits that i like. physical as well as mental. a majority of them are personality traits. maybe ill clue you in to them in a while. but not yet. im just not ready to bear my heart and soul to all of you just yet. maybe in a few weeks, when im less timid about having complete strangers take a peek at my life. maybe then... you'll get to see more of me.

i guess i should start this with the traditional "hi, this is me. and this is my first blog." blog entry. i should... but i wont. anything and everything you would like to know about me, you will learn in time. but for now, i think ill start by submerging you in my life. throw you in unprepared.

adam and i have been getting really close. hanging out all the time. ALWAYS on the phone. we talk for hours on end and we never run out of things to talk about. i love it. and you know when you start getting really close to a guy, you suddenly start to like him physically? when we first met, adam had the hots for me. i didnt feel it physically with him. but he had a sense of humor, so we started talking. now... i see it. its a wonder how inner beauty comes out after a while. he's great. but now im unsure how he feels about me. we click. he calls me as much as i call him. its not a one-way relationship. and that's what i need.

i just dont know where this relationship is going. we havent exactly had much physical contact. havent even had a REAL HUG yet. and yet, i jump at the chance to spend any time with him. and im not really sure whether or not i want to take it to the next level. maybe its because im scared to.

so why am i scared? cuz what we have right now is so awesome. ive had bad experiences in the past with guy friends that became boyfriends. after the big OFFICIAL STAMP, things turned ugly because the guy didnt know how to handle being in a relationship with me. the friendship was perfect, but when it came down to being in a relationship, the possessiveness and jealousy began to sink in. (not on my behalf ofcourse)

he's an ideal relationship type of guy. him and i click so well. im in his head. he's in my head. its like we have some uncanny connection that induces us to act similarly. we have a knack for texting each other at the exact same time. and knowing exactly what the other person is going to say, before saying it. and as boring as that may sound... us knowing each other so well that we know exactly what the other person is gonna say... its NOT. because he always finds ways to surprise me. and i him.

so where are the imperfections? he's my height. he lives far. he's not very physical. he's not my type (physically).

but that stuff i can get over. but there's one big thing....

there's someone else.